PARAMORE!!!

Woah!!! Yea I know this is late and whatever haha, but I got tickets to Paramore when they come to NZ in March next year! Choice as bro! lol

Was a bit of drama trying to get the tickets on presale when the tickets website went down (note don't ever use ticket master, they are clueless and SUCK!).

Anywho got my ticket! Wooooh!!!

Cant wait til next year!
Parachute Music Festival then Paramore, and possibly the Cobra Starship / Owl City if I can scrape some funds together for that and if there are still tickets together when I do so lol...

End of blog :)

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Worth watching:

• Switchfoot
• Underoath
• Hillsong United
• Leeland
• Family Force 5
• Falling Up
• Newworldson
• Nathan King
  
• Mumsdollar
• Manafest
• Late 80s Mercedes
• Dziah 2.0 (Dance)
• Ruby Frost
• Prestige Dance Crew (Dance)
• Chris Cope
  
• Sienna Skies
• Primal Band
• Grace Lawry
• Atlanta Fall
• Chloe Bartlett
• Alaska
• Legacy Dance Crew (Dance)
• Limit Break (Dance)
• Rachel Hope And The Music Box
• The Jury And The Saints
• Vivah

mainstage 09

listening to the quiet

in the secret, in the stillness i know that you are god.

sometimes listening to that voice and what it is saying to you sucks because it isnt what you want. but chances are it'll probably end up creating character in me. i know that running from that voice wont lead to good things, it never does.

"Have mercy on me, oh God
According to your unfailing love
According to your great compassion
Blot out my transgressions

The sacrifices of our God
Are broken in a contrite heart
Against you and you alone
Have I sinned?

Would you create in me a clean heart, oh God?
Restore in me the joy of your salvation

Wash me white as snow
And I will be made whole"

- White As Snow
Jon Foreman

19:14

growing up terrifies me as much as it excites me.

i have so many things to look forward to but also so many things that i must let go.

sometimes i wish i could remain a child forever and not have to worry about life.

but other times im thankful that im able to do things for myself, that i can decide what i want to do with my life (even though most of the time i have no idea which also scares me).

i dont really know what else to say on the matter, just sometimes these inbetween years are the scariest.

churches and serial killers

There is a part of me that always sees the easy way out.
If it doesn't hurt, then not another word.
You keep the reasons all but hidden, it feels like we will drown.
Do I hold on, when it's so far gone?

To recall all the footsteps in the hall, with our loose lips.
Chemicals in the bloodstream. Start the surgery.
Take care not to hurt me.

Send the signal. Send the signal.
Send the signal. Send the signal.

There is a part of me that always sees the easy way out.
(Is this the easy way?)
If it doesn't hurt, then not another word.
(Then take me back inside...)
You keep the reasons all but hidden, it feels like we will drown.
(Is this is where we were...)
Do I hold on, when it's so far gone?

Brush the skin; blood and bone.
Lose the voice.
She rejoices if I'm all alone.
Beauty takes more than anything.
But I can't stop whats inside of me.

Send the signal. Send the signal.
Send the signal. Send the signal.

There is a part of me that always sees the easy way out.
(Is this the easy way?)
If it doesn't hurt, then not another word.
(Then take me back inside...)
You keep the reasons all but hidden, it feels like we will drown.
(Is this is where we were...)
Do I hold on, when it's so far gone?

Is there a chance, just a chance that you need me?
Or are we better off thinking that in this dance the romance is a secret?
But I'm not quite sure I believe it.

With my eyes, with my words, slowly rise and fall...
(Catch me, I'm slipping through)
Slowly rise and fall.
(Catch me, I'm slipping through)
Slowly rise and fall.
(Catch me, I'm slipping through, your fingers)

i am happy

19:14

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight,
O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

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Just because I'm hurting, Doesn't mean I'm hurt

Just because I'm losing

Doesn't mean I'm lost

Doesn't mean I'll stop

Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting

Doesn't mean I'm hurt

Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved

No better and no worse

I just got lost

Every river that I tried to cross

Every door I ever tried was locked

Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off

You might be a big fish in a little pond

Doesn't mean you've won

'Cause along may come

A bigger one

And you'll be lost

Every river that you tried to cross

Every gun you ever held went off

Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the firing stopped

Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off

Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off

Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off

For you =B

Every challenge along the way,
With courage I'll face.
I will battle everyday,
To claim my rightful place.

Come with me, the time is right,
There's no better team.
Arm in arm, we'll win the fight,
It's always been our dream.

"23" Jimmy Eat World

I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine...

girls...

i dont get them... they say yes but they never really mean it. its like theyre thinking "hmmm sounds good, but give me a few days to think about it and even then i wont be sure."

i think for a guy it can be quite hurtful especially when it comes to you liking them and what not. 

anyway im out. got church tomorrow and gotta pack for camp this week whoo!!!

song of the moment: i will posess your heart - death cab for cutie

found you

i found you...

...im sure of it...

...you make my world amazing...

...and i really like you...

...i hope you like me too...

...please do

2 weeks in

man i can't believe how time has flied since i've been up here! so i moved upto auckland on the 6th of march, and got all settled in and stuff... now i'm 2 weeks into the course at excel (majorung in bass, minoring in drums and worship leading), and i'm absolutely loving it! few bumps and bruises getting used to it all but now i'm all good!

found a wicked awesome church with wicked awesome friends from school! im going to c3 in central auckland and also going to primal on thursday nights! 

oooh also been to the edge of the earth, will have to get photos off someone if they upload them. im sure there was a camera!

anyway i better jet! i have homework to do...

oh ps. im 20 now, had my birthday yesterday. everyone was busy so had no party :( but went out for tea with mum and dad which was nice.

1am and excel around the corner

this is fully painful! i leave to go to auckland in 9 days and i am so freaking bored! i wish time could go quicker.

its that feeling you get when christmas or your birthday is just the next day where you cant sleep, and are all excited about whats going to happen that day. except this has been for the last few days and i fear its only going to get worse, cause im all excited about moving town and what this year will bring into my life spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically.

i just want that 9 days to go past so i can be in auckland and get into it. i have a couple of minor jobs left to do here before i go (ring studylink, go to work and income, drivers licence test), but that will only take a day. then im stuck, with nothing to do. its frustrating. 

just take me there! argh! im going mental! i cant sleep! im tired! im hungry! im thirsty! im impatient! suffering from insomnia this is not fun!

i feel like all i can do is bang my head against the preverbial wall called time. it doesnt move any quicker and it just gives me a headache. 

hopefully my next blog will be written in my new room in auckland. 

as for now i must try to sleep or get a drink then try to sleep. i think i might do the latter.

anyway outskies,

bye.

getting ready to leave

i have decided that leaving town sucks. its not just the physical move and losing contact with friends. its all the prep before hand. especially when going away to study. there are so man dam forms to fill out, and often theyre in the same deparment. why cant information be shared? i cant see why i have to prove who i am to 20 different people to get just a benefit of $40 per week. it makes no sense to me...

anyway on another note all together, im missing some people right now. you know who you are.

laters

its all over... =[

so parachute is over and im sad. i want it to come back. i want to be dancing to family force 5, worshipping with the ember days, having a dance party in the middle of worship with parachute band, and having a ho down with david crowder band (man i miss that guitar hero controller).

probably had the best spot ever this year, had shade all day long... actually too much shade in the morning cause it was cold! ha never thought cold and parachute could be used together.

got burnt on the last day! boo! the only day i put sunscreen on too, whats with that? haha

had a youth farewell dinner last night as well 12 of us are leaving for further study this year, the biggest exodus of youth from the youth group in the last 10 years or so. none last year and only 1 the year before that. 

man im going to miss a lot of people this year... my bestest has just left town today for wellington, that'll be a 10 hour drive from where ill be going =[ that makes me sad.

anyway i have to go out and have some lunch with people and stuff, leaving town is a lot of work i tell ya and im not even leaving for another month haha...

toodles

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woo! next week! i so cant wait! hahah its my fav thing of the year (well along with christmas and my birthday haha).

printed out the programme tonight, and decided where i'll be spending my weekend.

friday.

arrive at parachute | set up tent

mainstage | 7.30pm | the wildcard comp winner
mainstage | 9.55pm | rapture ruckus
palladium | 11.00pm | family force 5

saturday.

mainstage | 9.30am | morning meeting
palladium | 12.20pm | artist interview
palladium | 3.40pm | primal band
seminar space | 4.10pm | guy talk
mainstage | 8.20pm | family force 5
mainstage | 9.25pm | kutless
palladium | 10.30pm | the ember days
palladium | 11.10pm | fatis valour

sunday.

mainstage | 9.30am | morning meeting
seminar space | 12.30pm | christian responsibility in a dying world
seminar space | 1.20pm | hurt people - hurt people
seminar space | 4.50pm | creativity & the arts: new hope for the 21st century
mainstage | 6.15pm | the ember days
mainstage | 7.40pm | joe pringle
mainstage | 9.20pm | david crowder band
mainstage | 10.35pm | casting crowns

monday.

mainstage | 9.30am | morning meeting
mainstage | 11.20am | casting crowns

sometime in the afternoon | go home =[

so if anyones at any of those things, text me or something and we'll hang =]

news?

ok so im watching the late night news and so far in the first 3 stories, at least 8 people have died.

what the heck? ok make that 4 stories and at least 9 deaths. seriously? why is this all the news shows? like a happy story would be nice...

so all the local news has just finished, and now it goes over to gaza where another conflict is happening, guess what more deaths..

it's really no wonder why there are so many people on anti-depression meds, who dont see anything coming of this life.

we are constantly bombarded with stories of death, murder, rape, war, and more of the like. im probably going to go to sleep tonight thinking of these things and how crap the world is.

thats the effect the news can have, we study the effect of the media in school yet we do nothing to change that. we do nothing to change the stories they show, we dont even make our voices heard with what stories we want to see or hear.

im thinking of ways to help change that.

id like a happy story before bed thank you.

seeking

well i just bought the live cd/dvd "the final riot!" by paramore last week and it just arrived in the post this morning. i've watched it 3 times now and it's great! honestly well worth it! their album "riot!" just went platinum in the united states and by watching this dvd you can certainly see why. they have a great stage show and are real creative with where they take their intros and songs etc. its not like the studio album at all, with all their creativity going into changes in the songs, linking songs together.

the set list goes:
- born for this
- thats what you get
- here we go again
- fences
- crushcrushcrush
- let the flames begin
- when it rains
- my heart
- decoy
- pressure
- for a pessimist, im pretty optimistic
- we are broken
- emergency
- hallelujah
- misery business

it is good! definitely recommended!

at the end of my heart (which was done acoustically to an amazing effect), when hayley was singing "this heart, it beats, beats for only you, my heart is yours" she got the crowd to join her.

now what really interested me was that hayleys hands were raised as if she was worshipping in a church, i know hayley is christian, but what really interested me is that nearly the rest of the crowd were doing the same.

maybe they felt something, felt like they were a part of something bigger than themselves. and since they were feeling that they had no hesitation to join in and become a part of something.

maybe thats one thing the church needs to learn, to make people feel that they are a part of something bigger than themselves that they have a purpose.

well anyway im out. pic below.